Preparing for New York

It’s hard to believe that I’ll be flying out to New York this week for a month! I booked it 8 months ago, and so much has happened between then and now. I’d say it’s been challenging in the weeks leading up to Wednesday; there have been certain mindsets I needed to overcome. However, the…

Turning 20 | Coming Back Home

I have most certainly winged it through my teens, and now I’m into my 20s! As one of my good mates reminded me, it only goes downhill from here… I’m intrigued to see what trials and tests will appear other than uni stress (perils of going into my third and final year!). Joking aside, I’m…

Justification and Permission in Recovery

One of the hardest aspects to appreciate during recovery is the fact that I should allow myself to eat what I want. I’m not speaking of chocolates all day everyday followed by McDonalds for every meal. It’s just the idea surrounding not saying ‘no’ to certain foods. Throughout the beginning of recovery it was hard…

The cover of Beat’s first magazine

A few months back, I received an email from the content officer at the charity Beat. She had mentioned about a new upcoming magazine which they were yet to publish the first edition of, and they needed someone to go on the front cover. I apparently fitted in nicely with this. Was I thrilled? YASSSS!…

Summer, Shame & Scars 

Scars are an unfortunate topic. Whether self inflicted or caused by external circumstances, people often want to cover up and hide them away. For people who self harm, winter is the best cover up they could ask for. But what happens when the warm weather approaches and it’s no longer as easy to hide? The…

Preparing for Christmas

It’s November, but it’s basically Christmas. And we all know how Christmas makes us feel: Although the happiest time of the year, the last few Christmases for me have known to be the most stressful time of the year. I remember December 2015, and casually binging on everything; after all, Christmas was a ‘treat day’. I…

5 Misconceptions about Eating Disorders

People with eating disorder hate food I fear food but I love food: people often find this confusing as there is a general assumption that everyone who has an eating disorder can’t stand food, meaning they won’t eat it. I love food, but I just fear to eat certain types or amounts as I don’t…

Painting as therapy

When I had to wait for the NHS to respond to my therapy request, I didn’t really know how to start feeling better. They gave me leaflets but leaflets are only informative, not helpful. The evenings were the hardest for me: it was the time when I was mostly on my own, I wanted to…

Royal Parks Half- Fundraising for Beat

Seriously one of the best days. It was such a rewarding experience to run for a charity that’s so close to me and to also see others run for theirs, or run for someone who they have lost. There were so many charities I have never heard of, and no matter how big or small…

Recovery isn’t linear 

I knew recovery wouldn’t be easy; I’d actually be surprised if someone told me it was. But there are things that they don’t tell you about recovery from an eating disorder, things that really, really SUCK. Always so damn hungry The hunger that comes in this form is extreme; you convince yourself that you’re going…